Hearbreak

You never forget your first heartbreak. It leaves an imprint on your soul. The feeling can sneak up on you at any moment. Triggered by the smallest scene. It's a squeeze on the heart and a flash from the past, it can never be forgotten, only forgiven. You can learn from it and grow. But your heart will always know that it opened up a window to your soul and let in a feeling of vulnerability. It will make it hard on the next, for walls will be put up but you have to trust your gut and let yourself be vulnerable again.

Quaterlife

Sometimes it seems tough to stay positive, but you have to remember that is the key. Lately I have been, I guess I would say "tested" in my life. I have been having many ups and many downs. The funny thing is how quick we are to hold on to what is bringing us down rather then keep the excitement for the things to come.  I have never understood why we do that, but a part of me believes that sometimes we hold on to the bad to really appreciate the good. I have come to understand that if you take a little time to meditate you will not only start to come to peace with the issues but you also start to understand a little more within yourself. Time flies by so quickly that we don't even realize the little things that keep slipping by, how taking 5 minuets to really get lost in yourself can make a huge difference.
I recently was in the process of moving and I came across a journal that I kept while I was in High school. It was so great to look over everything I wrote, I remember all the things I was writing about and a part of me said to myself, "I remember when I was like that". A part of me missed that, but more I think was me feeling that I had lost a part of me. A part of me got sucked into a certain kind of life, where I was allowing a lot of negativity in and I wasn't even realizing that I was attracting it. When you take the time to look at yourself and see the bigger picture you realize that the window of negativity you may have slightly cracked open is allowing more and more negative issues in until you close that window and open the door to the positive side.
Moving away from home is always a test, you grow so much from the experience, but keep up the positive spirit or there is a chance it will break you. Fear nothing, for you are who you are and nothing will change that. Stay true to yourself and follow your dream, it is yours and no one else can take that away from you.
Quote of the Day-
A man's failure to question the ideas by which he lives keeps his life as it is. - Vernon Howard

Writings!

Here are some writings that I did in the past couple years... Enjoy!

Never sleep til the sun comes up. Worry about nothing but, the comfort in the touch of the outsider. Reach for what tomorrow might bring. Living for each of everything. Feel for what the moment brings, nightfalls so quickly. Lingering essence of you near, close the door to wonder.


When you look at life in a distance, you see a lot of unknown. You want to explore the undiscovered and you wonder what's next. When you look into the eyes of a dreamer, you see the same questions you ask the stars. And when you look into the eyes of the beholder, you see only but your souls. You come with many unknowns, you seek what many don't, for they seek only for comfort where you seek nothing but soul. Hold on to each meaning, as many hurry bye, love not only once in your life time and you will come to truely find peace. 




Just a taste of some things that I am working on.... :) xoxo

Downtown Photo Shoot

LA has been raining like a mad man for the past couple of weeks. A very good friend of mine happens to be an amazing Photographer and we both had an amazing idea to have a photoshoot the next time in rained. So last Tuesday we decided that since we both were free we would have a phototshoot downtown on the rooftop of a friend of the photographers. We got to downtown around 11am and as the shoot began we were praying for rain, and as most people know about me is that I don't like the rain and/or being cold. So I am really proud of myself for making this photo shoot happen. As the time was going by still no rain, finally at 2:30pm it started to sprinkle and then gradually started to rain. Although it never started pouring we got some pretty great pics during this shoot. I was very happy with the way the photos turned out. It was a fun character for me to play and the photographer and I had a fun time during the shoot. It was a very productive day. :)

Sunday Sunday

Catching up with friends is such an uplifting experience. Last night I met up with a couple friends for drinks, we started our night at Lola's on Fairfax and ventured to the Palihouse in West Hollywood. It was a very mellow relaxing night, which are always my favorite. I hadn't seen some of these friends since before the holiday and new years, it was so nice to meet up with them and talk about all the new things going on in our lives for the New Year. Surprisingly enough most my girlfriends and I are single, I feel it hasn't been that way in a very long time. So there we were a couple of single girls catching up over a cocktail.
Over the New Year I ventured to S. America. Two friends of mine from High school moved down there for a life changing experience and I figured now is the time to go, it was Summer down there and any place with warmth is a fabulous place to me. The trip was an experience, i felt very tested. Our luggage was lost for 5 days.... need I say more. We made the best of what we had and walked away from this experience learning new things, isn't that what life is all about anyway. I saw a different side of friends and even got a little heartbroken, but I grew from the experience and walked away with a positive drive and I wouldn't change that at all. Its better to see things now and understand them, then be hurt and confused by them later.
Back to catching up with friends, its definitely motivating being around driven people. I love how driven my friends are. They motivate me and keep me going, they push me to succeed in life and achieve any goal I want, cause they believe in me. I am blessed with amazing people in my life who stick by me through the think and thin. These past couple of years have been hard on me, with a very rocking relationship that ended in October, to the ups and downs with certain friends which luckily have mended and started building an even stronger friendship. But I wouldn't change any of it, I grew so much from the past experiences and I have come to appreciate them for what they were and are. In life you have to let go not just forgive, let go of the emotion that you have attached to any negative situation cause that is just wasted energy that will run you down in the end. Just some words of advice, they helped me out and I hope they do the same for you.

Enjoy this beautiful Sunday and I'll leave you with another beautiful saying...
Walk with me, Hold my hand, Grown to know the more I am.

xoxo K

Friends

Last night I was in Burbank at a bowling alley with some old friends and now some new. It was nice to sort of feel like I was out of the typical LA world, things were actually cheap, which is rare especially in LA. The games were $5, Beers $1, Food (Hot Dogs, Pizza and Nachos) $1. I had a blast!! everyone was in such high spirits and looking for a good time, it made the night be full of life and laughter. I am now starting to realize the benefits of making the effort to go out and have a good time. Sometimes you get sucked into your comfort zone which in my case is home. I forget how much fun I can have with just a little effort in making it out into the world. Meeting new people and mingling around is kind of what life is all about. Sometimes breaking out of your comfort zone can feel like a lot of energy, but trust me in the long run, you will look back at these years and you don't want to have regrets. You only live once, so why not make the best of it. Its when you make the effort that you start feeling the positive energy even more. Thats my theme for 2010- Positive energy. :)

I am over this horrible gloomy rainy weather here in Los Angeles, but I am still making the effort to get out into the world instead of hide away at my apartment and honestly it feels really good. I think you should all take this advice and venture out tonight, its Friday night and there is a whole world out there that is excited to meet you.

Live.Love.Laugh xo K

New Year, New You.

2010... can you feel it? The energy in the air! This is the year, the year that maps out everything. Set your goals high and let your dreams be achieved. We all have it in us... now is the time to keep up the positive energy and let life take flight. I have always said- Live to know the meaning, Laugh with me til morning and Love me until Forever. I believe those are great words to live by. Stay tuned for more post on life, love and laughter as I take you through this journey I call life. xoxo